As I started thinking about it, it's good that I feel like I'm failing. If I knew there was nothing I could do about it and was doomed to continue failing, that would just be sad. But I know I'm not. I have been through times where I have been incredibly disciplined, and thinking back on those times is what makes me aware that I am so lacking right now. The feeling of failure stems from the surety that I am capable of more. But the more I thought about it, the more I think maybe I'm looking at failure in the wrong light.
THINKING ABOUT FAILURE MAKES ME THINK OF JESUS
Weird I know, but let me explain. To all those around Jesus, his agony in the garden, his arrest, his trial, his way of the cross(where he failed even more by falling so many times), and ultimately his death, looked like the depressing end to a story that had been talked up as being so great for so long(kind of like the movie The Perfect Storm...).
It looked to his disciples that they had wasted three years following him to no avail. It looked to everyone around him that he couldn't do anything that he said he could. He was being ridiculed by the criminal next to him, along with the guards and bystanders. He died a humiliating death and could not possibly be the Messiah that everyone had hoped for.
NOT THE END OF THE STORY
However, we know this isn't the last chapter of the book. We get our happy ending that we so desperately needed. We get to be thankful that even though we might fail...A LOT....we have a God who will never forsake or forget us. Even in our failure he loves us, enough to take that failure upon himself and die for us. And even when we are failing, he gives us the hope that we can do better, because we aren't alone. God uses apparent failure to bring about a greater good, in the grand scheme of things and he can in our lives as well.
Let's power through these last few days of Lent to help better prepare ourselves for the joy and jubilation that is to come!
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